Thursday, April 10, 2014

Heart update

I am little late on updating on Izzy's annual cardiology appointment but that is my life lately.  Disorganized and late...
Early in February, I sent Izzy and Ryan to Pensacola for her heart appointment.  I got a call from a frustrated Daddy saying they weren't showing Izzy having an appointment and the doctor wasn't even in.  What?!?  My phone said we had an appointment and Mommy's phone calendar is always correct, right??
So, a few weeks later I actually made Izzy's appointment- for real this time- and I took off work to take her this time.  Ryan wasn't taking any chances with me this time.
When did my little girl get so big?!?
Then she tried to run away before they could call her name...  She didn't get very far though. 
 Waiting for our turn to see the tech...
Izzy did great and this year we got to watch Mickey Mouse Clubhouse during her Echo.  One of our favorite shows. 
She laid perfectly still the entire time and was awarded the "best patient of the day" award.

After the Echo, we went to see her nurse for the EKG and then meet with her doctor.
She wasn't too sure about all the wires but she laid still so it was over quickly.

She is continuing to grow and gain weight like a champ.  After her OHS, she stil has a few holes (VSD) and some leakage but nothing has grown or changed so we are still in the clear.  We got another good report for her annual and we go back in another year for a checkup. 
Yay for another healthy heart visit!!

Friday, April 4, 2014


Swinging makes this little girl happy and so does that big brother in the background...
She giggled the entire time!

Wednesday, April 2, 2014


Today, Izzy and I met with 2 of her soon-to-be therapists within the school system.  Her birthday is just around the corner- May- and she will be "aging" out of the Early Steps program.  How can my little baby be turning 3?!?
We have decided to wait on enrolling her for PreK-D until August since her birthday is so close to the end of the school year. 
We went to the Elementary school and met with two very nice ladies that watched her interact and do tasks in order to get a good feel of her needs and evaluate her for our upcoming IEP meeting. (it wasn't nearly as scary as I had anticipated.) 
She did great with threading beads, drawing circles/lines, kicking/throwing the ball, tearing up paper- girl can destroy some paper.  We also saw were she still need extra help in certain areas.       
Sister loves people and doesn't tend to be shy- so that has never been a worry of mine.  If she happens to get shy, it will only be for a few minutes and then she owns the room.  She took immediately to the ladies.  Holding their hands while walking down the hallway and then went right to work following their directions.  He favorite word when they asked her if she could do something- Yep!
I have never been worried about her doing well within the program.  She has been going to daycare since she was 6 weeks old so she is used to structure and playing with her peers.  So, I can't figure out why I am so sad today.   She did awesome and I couldn't be more proud... but my heart hurts.   
My heart hurts and it is heavy.  I didn't want to leave her today.  I felt like I needed to hold on to her a little longer than usual. 
I know she has been so protected by our family, friends and then daycare.  Being in the school system can be exciting yet scary.  Will she be accepted??  Will she get the attention she needs???  Will kids make fun of her??  Will she________??  It can just go on and on.
I guess this can really be a fear for all of my kids but so much more for Izzy.  I don't want her to struggle and I want to protect her.  But I know she will have struggles and I can't protect her from everything.  I know she is so much stronger than I ever imagined.  She has overcome so much already in her short little life.  But... knowing that I can't be there to protect her from the world is scary. 
I wish the world would learn that everyone is different and that is ok.  People have come so far and are so much more accepting of differences now than before but we still have so far to go. 

This little girl doesn't see differences... she just sees you!  I strive everyday to be more like her.

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

That'll show her...

Izzy's been tagged by her brother's.  She goes in their room and gets kicked out but not before they put a sticker on her face along with a stern talking.
Cuz everyone knows, giving a sticker to a two year old as punishment will show her who's boss!

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Praying- anytime/anywhere...

So, I walk out of church and I find this...

Aiden - the praying statue.  Who knows how long he had been sitting like this.  He said he was the new fixture in front of the church.  He sure does keep me on my toes. 

Thursday, February 27, 2014

Over achiever??

I am talking about me here...
Last night, I had to do my "homework" given to me by Ethan's teacher.  I had volunteered to seperate, staple and paper clip all of the math booklets for his class.  I received a HELP email and soon realized I was behind and chapter 11 was needed ASAP.  So, the troops were called in - not my idea- and we conquered the booklets and all chapters are ready to be turned in.  Yep... only chapter 11 was needed but now, I am done for the year.  It feels good to be an over achiever sometimes!
Everything was going great (for the first few seconds) until things weren't as organized as I thought they should be.  The boys wanted to help with the stapling which meant the pages were crooked, or the staples didn't make it all the way through the packet.  After a few packets weren't up to par, they were fired. 
I was stressed and wasn't having fun- well, as much fun as you can have seperating math booklets.  Why do I get so stressed out over the little things?!?  Why can't I just breathe and go with the flow?!?
It is ok to not be perfect!  Trust me... if you walked into my house you would quickly realize I am not perfect.  Really, you wouldn't even have to walk in to the house... just drive into the driveway.  And yes, my house being messy totally stresses me out.  Really, with three kids - one of which throws everything in sight- it is hard to keep anything clean and organized.  That should be ok- to some degree. 
My life is chaotic at times.  Three kids, a full time job, sports, therapies... some days, I can't keep up with everything.
See... chaos and messy house.  I wasn't lying- wish I were.
Random night with Ninjas and mess
I am quickly realizing that my behavior and how I handle situations are starting to pass on to my kids.  They get stressed and freak out easily if something doesn't go their way.  This is not a trait that I want to pass on to anyone else. 
I have started taking some time for myself lately- well... the last 2 days but it is a start.  I like it!  I am trying to work on myself and getting back to my happy place.  I have become unhealthy and on edge.  I can change this!!  I need to change this- for myself and my family.  Life can be hard and right now... it is really hard for us but there has to be a light at the end of the tunnel somewhere.  I am going to start with getting myself back in order and learn to breathe and pray that everything else will follow. 
It is time for a new and better me!

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

I do not approve...

Is Ethan waiting for a flood to happen?!?  Look at poor Izzy... even she is trying to act like she isn't with him. 
These are not the pants I laid out for him to wear that day.  What happened when I left for work??
and don't even get me started on Aiden...
A Mama's work is never done!