As stated in some of my previous few posts... I have struggled the last few days with some of the same emotions that I thought I had already dealt with and overcome. I guess you can go through an emotion and get past it only to have it visit you once again. These last few days, I have felt like I have been grieving all over again then worrying about our future which then turns into stress. But I have also found that right in the middle of grieving and worrying, I have moments of happiness and longing to meet this little baby that has already changed our lives.
My mom reminded me to get back into my devotional (this book has seemed to relate to whatever I was going through at that particular moment.) So, of course, I obeyed my Mom and read my devotional after work and it hit me square between the eyes and put me back in check
Jesus Calling- Sarah Young: February 15th
Come to me with all your weaknesses: physical, emotional, and spiritual. Rest in the comfort of My Presence, remembering that nothing is impossible with Me.
Pry your mind away from your problems so you can focus your attention on Me. Recall that I am able to do immeasurably more than all you ask or imagine. Instead of trying to direct Me to do this and that, seek to attune yourself to what I am already doing.
When anxiety attempts to wedge its way into your thoughts, remind yourself that I am your Shepard. The bottom line is that I am taking care of you; therefore, you needn't be afraid of anything.